Profundity of Story

Lately, my thoughts have been turning toward the value of writing from the heart, writing deeply, writing profoundly. While I think many a worthwhile book has been written because of commercial motivations, and while I’ve written my fair share of novels plotted with monetary considerations in mind, that little voice inside my head, which seems to think I should be writing from my own heart, my own passion, just isn’t so little anymore.

Years ago, that passion was all that fueled me. It was at the core of the first books I wrote, but bit by bit, my writing turned from a passion and a desire to create something beautiful into a business, a job. While I still loved the stories I wrote, and still thought they were worthwhile and beautiful and of value, I chose my stories by the commercial potential they might have. Even worse, I wrote them with the imaginary reader looking over my shoulder.

I eventually struggled with burn out because of this. The last few years I’ve forced myself away from that burn out brink, and regained some of the joy of writing by following my “gut” feelings. With effort, I’ve come far enough from that commercial mindset that I can see, relatively clearly, that I’ve lost touch with the deeper truths in my own stories.

Today, thanks to a wonderful conversation with a patient and kind friend (thank you, Barb!), I feel as if I’ve made another significant shift from that commercial mindset. I have a very long way to go, but that’s okay. I see where I am now, as well as the first steps I need to take to get to the heart of things.

I think I may record my journey here in the next little while. If you feel like coming along with me, please share! I’d love to hear how you embrace the profound nature of your own stories. Maybe we can even help each other along. 🙂 I’d truly love that!

Happy Writing!

Posted in Miscellaneous, Random Thoughts, Ups and Downs, Writing Life.

5 Comments

  1. Awesome! That is the real you coming to the surface. Although it might at times be a little scary, remember that you are never wrong and that there is truly magic in connecting with others; writing from your heart contributes an infinite quality of pictures in words that will last forever and it is a gift that blesses the lives of others. Love your new adventure!

  2. Thank you for sharing this, Angela. Over the past ten or fifteen years that I’ve “seriously” pursued my writing, I’ve put regular thought and work into how to balance the practical realities of _every_ life (our need for food, shelter, etc.) with what I more and more feel is an equally important, pressing human need: creation and expression of whatever “impractical” lovelies or dark things our souls want/need to let loose. I am pretty stubborn and often ended up taking part-time (or full-time) jobs to avoid having to work on projects I don’t care about. . . . Lately, however, I’ve discovered I love a genre that might actually pay my bills and allow me to write full-time (with some freelance editing on the side)–but I have other stories I want/need to write too. . . . so we’ll see what the future holds. I’m very much looking forward to reading your thoughts/experiences as you pursue your writing heart, as I know I’ll benefit from them. 🙂 Cheers to the newest phases of growth in our writing lives!

    • It’s so awesome, Ev, that you know yourself so well and have found that balance – and that you’re so stubborn. 😀 I love and admire that about you. I’m also super excited about your new venture with Winding Path books, and have no doubt whatsoever that you have both the attitude and stories to make it! I’m cheering loudly from the sidelines!

  3. Angela, thanks for sharing. It seems that doing what your heart tells you is the connection between the Spirit and the real you. I am not a writer so not sure about writing for income. I would be amazed if your heart wasn’t revealed during the years of “commercial” writing. The maturing that comes to each of us as life happens transform us in ways that we could never have imagined. Delighting in relationships and loving more deeply as time goes by is the key to being fully present. You have brought much joy to many young lives and if they are the memory of childhood then what a gift you have given so many. There are often times of change in life and thanks for sharing this changepoint in your life. We are often so hard on ourselves and as we get past the change, we see that there was benefit in the rethinking of our priorities.

    • Thank you so much, Gaye! I appreciate your wise words so much. It’s wonderful to know there are people who support me, who understand, and who are so kindly willing to share their own strengths and insights. I am honoured and extremely grateful!

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